Who here suffers from anxiety? (raises hand) Most days, I have no idea what I’m wearing that day when I first wake up. I mean, who does? Even though I’m a fashion blogger (so I guess it’s kind of my job to put together outfits), this task often causes me lots of frustration and worry. If I can’t think of a good outfit to wear within, say, 15 min or so, I get really flustered and start off my day on a bad note.
I know, that sounds really superficial. But I promise it isn’t entirely based on looks. I feel that something I’m good at is coming up with outfits, even if I can’t do it quickly all the time. But when something I’m confident in starts to crumble, I lose faith in myself and have major self-doubt. This is part of my anxiety, and it sucks. When my boyfriend and I went out to shoot this outfit, I was feeling very anxious. I thought the outfit looked terrible, and I was embarrassed to call myself a fashion blogger (I’m glad to say that looking at these photos, I feel a lot better about the look). Can any of you relate?
As the day went on, I calmed down and felt slightly better about myself (with the help of my amazing boyfriend). That being said, I wanted to post about this because I know that everybody feels self-doubt. From this particular experience, I’ve learned not to let the self-doubt get to me. Because of my anxiety that day, I wasn’t able to shoot as many pictures as I would have liked, and I felt really awful for a good portion of the day. Additionally, my outfit not being the best is not a big deal, especially in the grand scheme of things. As long as I look and act confident in my outfit, my appearance will be nothing to worry about.
If you deal with anxiety and/or self-doubt, keep this lesson in mind. Feeling good about yourself is important, and letting it get to you will solve nothing (as I learned when I had very few photos to edit… not fun). Instead, think of all the things that make you proud to be who you are. A few things I admire about myself are my passion for this blog, and my ability to adapt in surprising situations. I reminded myself of these things once I felt I could tackle my anxiety, and they instantly made me feel better.
So, rant over. Ha! I got a little side tracked from my outfit today, beauties. I hope you all can relate and maybe learn from my experience.